This is my first post and I'm kinda embarrassed but here goes...
I've been dating this guy for a year and a half. I really, really love him and he made me feel loved everyday.
I'm very lucky to have him. So lucky that it's been bothering me for months. I mean, am I worthy to be with him? He's smart, funny and loyal. And me? I fucked up my studies, and everything I do ends up failing. I'm very awkward and anti-social. I'm a failure and a mess. We always fought because of that. And I couldn't count how many times I've disappointed him and my mom and made her cry.
So I started thinking that maybe if I keep being with him, I'll end up dragging him down with me. He really deserves someone better. Someone who is bound to become successful in the future. Someone who is prettier and smarter. And I know full well that it's not me.
That's why I broke up with him few days ago. Even though I did the right thing, it still kills me. And I started to wonder maybe I'll regret it. But I don't want to be selfish. I believe a lot of girls who's better than me will be all over for him.
I know we haven't broken up for long but I'm scared if I want him back, he's already with someone else.
What do you think? Am I being unreasonable? Unfair?