musikalles

Not really, anyway. It's been almost constantly storming and flooding. I had food poisoning, or a sickness or something finally going away. Both of those have kept me homebound. I managed to cement myself even FURTHER in to tumblr, rather than pull away from it, which wastes my free time I did give myself at the computer in the worst way. I barely bother with facebook anymore. I don't know what this is a sign of. Unless it means I'm hiding from real life people and things in favor of virtual things and internet friends, but I already knew that was a dilemma.

My mother and brother are both pulling in opposite directions and it's hard, really hard to know who's right sometimes. Plus everyone is sick and tired of being sick and tired. It should be her I lean on but I second guess her judgment and her set examples. I love her. I love him. They're both crazy. And I know that if there's one thing our family collectively struggles with, it's laziness. It's a lack of desire to actually DEAL WITH ANYTHING. We are all procrastinators. She keeps begging for us to step up to the proverbial plate and I want to but I feel like I don't have it in me. My brother says to her face he won't... he does this in a round-about way because he lies to her face instead and that makes it more obvious. And today I saw it make her cry.

Ugh, why are any of these things even issues. I wish they would go away.

Anyway. I haven't streamed and I haven't commented but I can't keep away from here forever, it means too much to me. Please feel free to drop me a message or comment, if you so desire. I'm not unreachable. I have lots of gratitude and respect for the people I meet here, so if you want to get a hold of me, I'm there. Thank you guys. Update, complete! See you around!