jillaimay's diary♥

They say whatever you do now would became your past and soon it will affect your future as well. But I say the past doesn't really matter. We sometimes have to let go of it because our present now determines our future. We can still correct the wrong we have done in the past. But is that enough to say that everything will be worthwhile.

I know some of us may not notice this but most of us are sometimes clinging on the past. I, for one, am guilty of such charge. Yet I always put the ...

I thought you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I wish you came with a manual and instructions that once I have fallen for you, I would get my hopes up. You seem nice at first but in the end you have broke me. Don't get me wrong, I think it was partially my fault thought. Why? Cause I have fallen for your trap. I have thought that you were good for me. I wish when it comes to things like this my mom would have warned me like what she does when I was a kid,"Darling, don't get that. ...

It has been awhile since I last studied for something. Eversince I graduated college, I dont want to open another textbook. Plus, after the phenomenal board exam, I don't know if I want to study again. But I NEED to. The problem is... How do I do that?

I really think I need to find a motivation or something. Gosh... I'm so lazy too... Any suggestions?

Now, I'll stare at my books and old notes

Yey! I just finished watching Rurounin Kenshin: Samurai X. It was so hilarious :3 Though it was kind of long. Super long. About 2 or 3 more hours. But watching it with a friend is so nice.
Sanosuke was so hilarious. My day was not wasted. Plus i received great news! Today must be my lucky day.

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Today, I was registering as a nurse at what we call PRC... A government establishment for professionals. I realize how their system sucked. My friend and I kept going to long lines and we're so frustrated. Have they never thought of improving the services here? Like come on, would it be smoother if they made a way to make it faster and less hassle? Alot of professionals go here everyday afterall.

And here they go, adding a non-sense law. Do they even think? Where is the freedom of ...

How do you feel if you lost something very important to you? Especially if your life depended on it? Well... What you are about to read is something that happened this very day. And I promise if it happened again I will not cry anymore but jump over a building.

Each time I go (from wherever I was whole day), I always made it a point to take off my contact lenses. I have glasses but it is quite a bother for me to wear them outside. I look so old and my glasses are thick. ...

How would you feel that your 3 year relationship with the person you love suddenly ended?

Well... For me, it is so hard to move on and get on with my life. I really felt like... okay... so this is the end of a chapter of my story in my life. I wasn't sad because I lost a guy. I was sad because I really thought that this relationship would.. you know... finally kick off.

It so hard to find someone of the opposite sex to actually understand you. The ...

I just hate it when you go out of your house to go to your old school and your dad using the computer. When you come back, he broke it.

I suffered a week without computer and a week without opening OS. I felt very sad. So I had no choice but sleep and watch TV. But now I am back. I'm so happy :)