byon 05-20-2012 at 01:04 AM (160 Views)
I smirked a bit when my second ex's mom invited me to her wedding. Wish it wasn't in Louisiana, I'd totally go. Ah well.
That really brings up memory's of last year. That was loads of fun we had running together. I just wish it didn't have to end the way it did. I always left the door wide open, but I can tell she's moved far on. Oh well, it happens a lot. Her mom and soon to be step dad made me feel really comfortable the one time we met at that convention in Oregon. Like I was part of their family or something. I felt really happy that her family was cool with me.
I'm kinda missing all of that now. Kinda feel weird, y'know. Thinking of all those good times, and even though I'm starting to have a blast on my own now, I just kinda feel a little numb compared to then. Like it just wouldn't be the same as that ever.
I try to tell myself it was really overrated, stupid, and that I rushed into it again like I usually do, but it really was something special we had going. I miss her sorely, I do.
Nothing can change what she did and chose though, so I just gotta carry on.
Here's a little music to lighten the mood.