solidoxygen
05-10-2009, 03:55 PM
What I saw and thought today...
A few years ago, I had a piano teacher who was like an unofficial grandmother to me (since my real grandparents all live in China). Every Mothers' Day or Christmas for example, we'd take her somewhere nice and eat. She was a kind and intelligent woman. Her son had died before from cancer, and because of her regretful past, she always treated me and my brother with utmost generosity. In fact the computer I'm using right now, although not the best of computers, was a gift from her. A few hundred dollars, given without a second thought...and it's not like she was rich either. By our standards, she lived a modest life in a small one story house by herself. Despite her old age, she was clear-minded because of the countless years she spent playing the piano. When she sat down at a piano, her old bones seemed invigorated with renewed energy, the sap of her youth found their way back into her body and fingers, and if you closed your eyes, you would never think that a woman who is much past her prime could possibly be producing this energetic tune. She presented a bright outlook on life. Look at her! She lost her husband after coming to America, her beloved son had died, and she had diabetes. Yet no matter what, she retained her cheer. She was beautiful even in her old age.
A few month ago, this bright, kind woman suffered a stroke. After mostly recovering, she still seemed a broken woman. While she could still walk and talk, she became helpless, dependent on other people, and her mind was no longer young. The piano that she had been playing for so many years, that had produced so many treasured memories was sold. Her modest and homely house was sold because she couldn't maintain the premises anymore. She would lament, "If only my son were still alive..." Despite help from those around her, nobody wanted to bear someone that was not of their own blood. Kind words were thrown about like cheap paper, and those with cheap facades of kindness would step away to avoid all responsibility. It's sad seeing someone who gave away a week's pay without any hesitation being ignored...simply because they wanted to take a nap. Her generosity was rewarded by abandonment and fake smiles. Her reward for her kindness was this sludge of society. Her living conditions only deteriorated more from that point. After living for a month in a Plano nursing home, her insurance company decided that they didn't want to pay so much. They made up a lie about how she tried to "run away from the nursing home" so she needed to be moved to a cheaper place in Garland. Without any siblings, no spouse, no offspring, no friends, and no hope, she could only choke back the indignation. What power did a single, broken woman have? She was moved into her new home.
I had been unaware of her situation up until now. We only knew the surface of what was happening to her. We were another family in this world, there was nothing significant about us. We parted ways every morning, we worked where ever we went, we came back each night to eat dinner together, and we slept so that we would be rested for the next day. We had a responsibility to live, not to get involved in other people's lives. We were unaware. For Mothers' Day, it was decided that we would bring her to eat since we hadn't seen her in a while. After taking her with us from the church and finishing our lunch, we went to take her home.
What we found was a Hell Hole. We were greeted by the disgusting stench of urine and disinfectant. I felt lightheaded and gagged. Everywhere I looked was a new horror. One old man was wearing pants that were completely soaked with piss. Helpless, he could only moan in distress. I couldn't help but wonder what he was like in his youth. This man, now living in his own excrement and suffering in this condition was once young. He once played with his friends, maybe there was someone who loved him, maybe he loved someone as well. His past was now covered with his age and the overwhelming power of disinfectant. Once he was a boy like me; now he is living with no dignity, no purpose. His life and everything he did in his life...all of it just led to this conclusion.
We departed after saying goodbye to my former piano teacher. She used to be a young girl, what would that girl do if she knew that she would end up here? I looked at her face one more time as I left. I saw resignation and sadness. Here she would spend the rest of her life.
Happy Mothers' Day
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A few years ago, I had a piano teacher who was like an unofficial grandmother to me (since my real grandparents all live in China). Every Mothers' Day or Christmas for example, we'd take her somewhere nice and eat. She was a kind and intelligent woman. Her son had died before from cancer, and because of her regretful past, she always treated me and my brother with utmost generosity. In fact the computer I'm using right now, although not the best of computers, was a gift from her. A few hundred dollars, given without a second thought...and it's not like she was rich either. By our standards, she lived a modest life in a small one story house by herself. Despite her old age, she was clear-minded because of the countless years she spent playing the piano. When she sat down at a piano, her old bones seemed invigorated with renewed energy, the sap of her youth found their way back into her body and fingers, and if you closed your eyes, you would never think that a woman who is much past her prime could possibly be producing this energetic tune. She presented a bright outlook on life. Look at her! She lost her husband after coming to America, her beloved son had died, and she had diabetes. Yet no matter what, she retained her cheer. She was beautiful even in her old age.
A few month ago, this bright, kind woman suffered a stroke. After mostly recovering, she still seemed a broken woman. While she could still walk and talk, she became helpless, dependent on other people, and her mind was no longer young. The piano that she had been playing for so many years, that had produced so many treasured memories was sold. Her modest and homely house was sold because she couldn't maintain the premises anymore. She would lament, "If only my son were still alive..." Despite help from those around her, nobody wanted to bear someone that was not of their own blood. Kind words were thrown about like cheap paper, and those with cheap facades of kindness would step away to avoid all responsibility. It's sad seeing someone who gave away a week's pay without any hesitation being ignored...simply because they wanted to take a nap. Her generosity was rewarded by abandonment and fake smiles. Her reward for her kindness was this sludge of society. Her living conditions only deteriorated more from that point. After living for a month in a Plano nursing home, her insurance company decided that they didn't want to pay so much. They made up a lie about how she tried to "run away from the nursing home" so she needed to be moved to a cheaper place in Garland. Without any siblings, no spouse, no offspring, no friends, and no hope, she could only choke back the indignation. What power did a single, broken woman have? She was moved into her new home.
I had been unaware of her situation up until now. We only knew the surface of what was happening to her. We were another family in this world, there was nothing significant about us. We parted ways every morning, we worked where ever we went, we came back each night to eat dinner together, and we slept so that we would be rested for the next day. We had a responsibility to live, not to get involved in other people's lives. We were unaware. For Mothers' Day, it was decided that we would bring her to eat since we hadn't seen her in a while. After taking her with us from the church and finishing our lunch, we went to take her home.
What we found was a Hell Hole. We were greeted by the disgusting stench of urine and disinfectant. I felt lightheaded and gagged. Everywhere I looked was a new horror. One old man was wearing pants that were completely soaked with piss. Helpless, he could only moan in distress. I couldn't help but wonder what he was like in his youth. This man, now living in his own excrement and suffering in this condition was once young. He once played with his friends, maybe there was someone who loved him, maybe he loved someone as well. His past was now covered with his age and the overwhelming power of disinfectant. Once he was a boy like me; now he is living with no dignity, no purpose. His life and everything he did in his life...all of it just led to this conclusion.
We departed after saying goodbye to my former piano teacher. She used to be a young girl, what would that girl do if she knew that she would end up here? I looked at her face one more time as I left. I saw resignation and sadness. Here she would spend the rest of her life.
Happy Mothers' Day
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